Notes Report
10-Jun-10
	5/1/20	Okay -- this is my first day of brainstorming for Night's End. So far I have a couple of characters: 
	Kate Angelo and her husband Nick Angelo. Kate is a clinical psychologist and a mystery writer. 
	Nick is a columnist at the Post Dispatch. Kate is currently working as the intake counselor at St. 
	Sebastian Hospital, a hospital for the mentally ill. She also has a small private practice. At one time 
	she'd been a staff counselor at St. Sebastian but she’d become burned out after several years of 
	dealing with hard-core mental cases who showed no hope for improvement. When the intake 
	position was created, Kate had been first in line to apply for it and had won it hands down over the
	 other applicants.
	
	She’d felt an enormous sense of relief at being off the firing line -- accompanied by an equal feeling
	 of guilt at shirking front line duty. Doing the testing had seemed like a vacation compared to her 
	previous duties. She now was working the position on a part-time basis, to give her time for her 
	small private practice and her mystery writing. This will probably be third person although I just 
	did my practice with Kate Angelo and first person. I'll try to do the same thing in third person and 
	see how it goes. I'm going to make this work. And I'll get the message about my plot and the story 
	and the scenes and the characters and how to put suspense into it -- to keep people on the edge of
	 their seats -- to make them apprehensive and concerned about what's going to happen. Nick and 
	Kate have a weekend a-frame in the woods. It had belonged to Nick's parents but when they 
	retired, they bought a year-round residence in a wooded enclave and had deeded the small a-frame 
	over to Nick and Kate. The Angelos spent as many weekends out there as they could. In fact, at 
	the start of the book, Kate was called in to St. Sebastian and she and Nick had been out at the 
	A-frame. Nick has just sold his first book, a collection of the newspaper columns that he writes. 
	The book was purchased by a small press,the University of Missouri in Columbia, Nick and Kate's 
	alma mater, and the advance wasn't much. But Nick was over the moon over having sold his book. 
	Kate hasn't sold her first mystery novel yet but is encouraged by Nick's sale of his book and 
	knows hers will come when the time is right., also to a small press located on the West Coast. She's
	 currently struggling with her book and is trying to find the right direction to go. Nick and Kate 
	have been married for 10 years. They were high school sweethearts, went to Mizzou together, then 
	went to different universities for their master's degrees. Nick got a full-ride scholarship to the 
	Columbia University School of Journalism in New York City. Kate stayed in St. Louis and enrolled 
	in Washington University. She too had gotten a generous scholarship and had worked part-time 
	jobs to supplement the scholarship. 563
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	5/2/20	Second day of Night's End. I'm thinking about using past things -- like Serena hitting her stepfather
	 over the head with a frying pan and killing him when he tries to rape her sister -- that's from 
	reckless endangerment, I think. I also want to use the miscarriage and the two black kittens from 
	Night Woods and Chessy and Jack. I'll name the kittens Tucker and Taylor. Maybe I'll make them 
	look like Tucker and Taylor. I'm using St. Sebastian and stuff from the first Night's End. I think 
	Kate's father left when she was a girl. Her mother took a job as a secretary and managed to support 
	them. They sometimes had to live with one or another of her aunts -- her mother's sisters but her 
	mother always managed to get them back in a place of their own. It was a good childhood, though. 
	Even though they didn't have much money, Kate's mother created a magical childhood for her 
	daughter. Jenny Schreiber was a creative, joyous woman who knew how to live life to its fullest. 
	She taught those attributes to her daughter. Jenny had two years of college before she married 
	Larry Schreiber, one of her classmates at the junior college she attended. He had struggled through
	 a series of jobs, not knowing what he wanted to do with his life. He had a temper and that caused 
	him problems wherever he worked. Things would be going along all right and then someone would 
	do something to make him mad and his anger would erupt and turn into an uncontrollable rage and 
	he would end up getting fired again. One day when Kate was 10, Larry Schreiber got fired again. He
	 came home still boiling and took his anger out on Jenny and Kate, yelling at them, threatening 
	them, pushing them around, but never actually hitting them. But his behavior frightened Jenny 
	enough that she asked him to leave. That fanned the flames of his anger even more and this time he
	 did hit Jenny. She was so shocked that she grabbed Kate and ran from the house, heading over to 
	a sister who lived a few blocks away. Later that day, Jenny's sister drove Jenny and Kate back to 
	their house to find Larry gone, along with most of his belongings. Jenny learned that he had 
	cleaned out their checking and savings accounts., leaving her with nothing. All through the years, 
	Jenny and Kate had thought he'd come back or at least contact them but they hadn't heard a word. 
	As Kate grew up and was able to take care of herself, Jenny went back to college and finished her 
	degree. She was promoted to office manager from secretary, then was made a vice president of the 
	small plumbing supply firm. In her spare time she wrote romances, a hobby that had started when 
	she was a little girl. She'd never thought what she wrote was much good but she joined a writers' 
	group and they encouraged her to submit one of her manuscripts. The book caught the attention 
	of an editor at the publishing firm to which Jenny submitted her manuscript and the editor bought 
	the book.526
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	5/3/20	May 3, 2010
	I thought I liked the idea of first-person for Kate - and I thought about first-person for Nick also. 
	But now I'm thinking third person all the way through. I'll try that and see how it works. 
	
	I don't want to let myself off lightly by using the good stuff from the previous books. I still have 
	some creativity and clever ideas somewhere here - so I'll come up with some new stuff.
	Brainstorming:
	It's coming up on Kate's and Nick's 10th wedding anniversary and each of them, unbeknownst to 
	the other, is planning something very special. Their plans get tangled up and for a brief time it's a 
	mess but then it all gets straightened out. I'll figure out what special plans each of them devised.
	I decided Kate's dad is currently not on the scene. He may play a role in today's world of Kate. 
	Nick's parents are still very much around, as is his sister and his brother. They're a close, loving 
	family. They lived a privileged life - Mr. Angelo is an executive vice president at Boeing, one of the 
	world's leading aerospace firms, his area is headquartered in St. Louis. He's been with the firm all 
	his working life and started out as a co-op studenl from Rolla School of Mines and Metallurgy.
	Mrs. Angelo is a society lady but struggles to be normal and treat her inferiors well. I haven't 
	decided whether she's going to be a bitchy snob like Mrs. Ellerman or not. I'll think about that. Kate
	 recently went through horrendous fertility treatments and is taking a breather from them because it
	 almost destroyed her marriage, her sanity and all her close friendships.
	Nick is hot on the trail of a fascinating series of columns but won't share any of it with anyone. 
	He's afraid if the topic leaks, someone else will jump on it or his sources will dry up. He loves his 
	parents but understands their shortcomings and accepts them anyway. He and his sister are 
	extremely close and withstand the onslaughts of the elder Angelos.
	Kate and Nick have an A-frame in the woods and a loft apartment in downtown St. Louis. They 
	always planned to move to the suburbs once they had children but since that hasn't happened yet,
	 they're still in their loft. Nick brought home two kittens for Kate right after the miscarriage, so that 
	she would have something to absorb all the love she'd been storing up inside for the projected 
	baby, as the two of them had called it. The kittens are now lean and lanky cats named Tucker and 
	Taylor and they bring much joy to Nick and Kate. Nick found them in a corner of Soulard Market 
	under a sign that said Free Kittins. He'd given the little girl who was giving away the kittens all the 
	money he'd had in his wallet — $73 and change. 507
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	5/4/20	May 4, 2010
	After they'd been married five years, Kate got pregnant and miscarried at 4 1/2 months .It was a 
	hard adjustment and this is when Nick brought home the two kittens, one coal black and one 
	beautiful cream siamese coloring. For the next few years, Kate tried to get pregnant but nothing 
	happened. Her ob/gyn referred her to a fertility specialist and Kate and Nick spent the next couple 
	of years on the fertility roller coaster. Kate went through the fertility treatments while she was still 
	seeing patients at St. Sebastian and her emotional ups and downs with the hormones were the main
	 reason she took on the intake counselor role. She'd come close to losing her temper with several of
	 her patients and she knew she had to do something. It was as though she was consumed with 
	rage. It seemed that at any moment she might erupt in a tirade of anger and bitterness and 
	resentment. Kate had always been such an easygoing, positive, happy person, and she didn't 
	know how to handle this alien person who now inhabited her body.
	Even Nick, being the gentle, understanding, accepting person that he was, found it difficult to deal 
	with Kate when she went on one of her rampages. One evening, he'd even walked out, not knowing
	 what to say or do but knowing it would do no good to stick around and get caught in Kate's 
	ranting and raving. There had finally come a time when the director of her department sat her down 
	for a heart-to-heart, telling Kate that everyone had noticed the change in her behavior and 
	demeanor and outlook on life and that her colleagues and co-workers were concerned about her.
	Kate hadn't shared anything about the fertility treatments with anyone at work. She finally told her 
	director who understood immediately, having gone through much the same thing a few years back. 
	The director told Kate that she needed to either take a leave of absence or stop the fertility 
	treatments. She couldn't continue to see patients while she was on the drugs. That was right at the 
	time that the intake job was created and Kate immediately jumped on that option. Her director 
	agreed that she could handle that job and that the emotions would be minimal. Her director did say 
	that they would try it for a month and see how it went. If that didn't work out, and Kate wanted to 
	continue the fertility treatments, she would have to take a medical leave of absence. Kate agreed, 
	and took the intake position. But shortly after that was the episode with Nick and that was the final
	 blow to the fertility treatments. Kate stopped the hormone shots and the drugs, willing to be 
	childless because she was afraid her mood swings were messing up her marriage. It was like the 
	difference between night and day. One day she was a monster and the next day, she began to act 
	like her old self. It took almost a month to get all of the drugs out of her system but the immediate 
	improvement was a godsend.
	Kate told her director she'd prefer to stay in the intake position for awhile just to get head back on 
	straight.539
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	5/5/20	May 5, 2010
	
	I'm working on creating the villain for Night's End.
	
	His name is Jason Angelo. He's the beautiful twin son of wealthy parents. It's old money, brewery 
	mingled with chemicals a touch of shoes an d a sprinkling of aerospace, all the former movers and 
	shakers of St. Louis money.
	
	His twin brother is named 
	Wait a minute
	
	Is he Nick's twin brother? Are they estranged? Is Jason estranged from his family? Or is Nick 
	estranged from everyone?
	
	Does everyone know there's something wrong with Jason or is it a deep dark secret.
	
	Jason is tall and well-built, with dark blond hair and brilliant blue eyes. He's charming and handome
	 and intelligent.
	
	He went to private schools and Washington University. Nick chose to go to public schools and 
	the University of Missouri. They're identical twins in looks but complete opposites in terms of 
	personality. Nick identified with regular people and Jason was all about wealth and position and 
	prestige.
	
	Nick chose the path he did because of Kate. He met her when he was in high school and chose to 
	go to public school.
	
	There were always problems with Jason from childhood. He seemed off just a little. His mother 
	doted on him. As a toddler, he'd almost drowned in the family swimming pool, courtesy of a 
	neglectful nanny. After this almost tragic accident, Mrs. Angelo had become overprotective of 
	Jason. 
	
	Nick was sort of an afterthought with his mother but he handled it okay -- he was self-sufficent and
	 loving and caring. His father intuitively gave him the attention he needed.
	
	There's an older sister who also looked after Nick. she took the measure of Jason and knew she 
	wanted no part of him. Her name is Megan -- Nick calls her Meggie and loves her madly. She's now 
	sister Mary Thomas, a nun in a nearby convent.
	
	Nick went to a neighborhood public school -- Jason went to the most prestigious most expensive 
	Catholic schools. Megan had gone to Catholic grade school and high school. She entered the 
	convent after high school Nick was devastated to lose his older sister. But it wasn't a cloistered 
	convent. The family could visit Sister Mary thomas and she could come visit the family on 
	holidays. 
	
	Kate and Sister Mary Thomas were close -- MT, as Nick and Kate called her, was two years older 
	than Nick and Kate and had grown close to her brother's girlfriend.
	
	Kate's family is not Catholic and Nick is not so Catholic anymore. I'll figure this part out later. Nick 
	is who he is partly because of his father and his sister. Jason is who he is because his mother made
	 him that way. Because he almost died, she coddled him and protected him and gave him 
	everything he asked for. He was never disciplined. He learned at an early age how to lie and 
	deceive and get away with things. Nick and Megan saw him for who he really was but most other 
	people didn't --e xcept for the women he took advantage of and which his mother paid off. 518
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	5/6/20	May 6, 2010
	What is the mystery? What has Jason done? Who is he after? I think I'll use the caves at St. 
	Sebastian. There's a secret entrance in the bluffs overlooking the Mississippi. Harry shows Kate. 
	Harry is creepy. For awhile Kate thinks Harry is after her. She feels like someone is following her. 
	She gets phone calls where someone hangs up. She's feeling beleaguered and she's afraid at firm to
	 say anything to Nick because of what they went through with the fertility hormones. She thinks 
	he'll think it's just her whack) mind again.
	She talks to one of her two best friends, Tamara (have to find a last name, unless there's one in my 
	journal.) Tamara is a police detective for the Park Lane police — Park Lane is a ritzy suburb of St. 
	Louis - the ritziest one there is. Tamara gets a big kick out of the fact that she's sort of a wrong side
	 of the track kid and here she is mingling and mixing with the hoi polloi.
	Tamara takes Kate's concerns seriously because of the kind of people she's involved with in her 
	job. She gives Kate some safety tips and insists that she start carrying mace with her and that she 
	stays out of dangerous places. Their other best friend, Harley, is a professor in the criminal justice 
	department at the University of Missouri- St. Louis and they bring her into the discussion. Harley 
	shares with them a similar experience she had with a stalker when she was working on her 
	doctorate in San Francisco. The stalker was seriously dangerous and his actions had led to the 
	accidental death of one of his victims. Harley's advice was for Kate to tell Nick immediately what 
	was going on. He could be her best protection.
	Kate debated with herself over that action because she feared Nick wouldn't take her seriously and 
	that would really upset her.
	Harley, Tamara and Kate had gotten together for dinner at a downtown restaurant close to Nick 
	and Kate's loft apartment. Her friends had insisted on coming home with her and being there while 
	she talked to Nick. Kate liked that idea because she thought Nick would be less apt to not take her 
	seriously if he saw that her two best friends did. The three women are about the same age. They 
	met in college and have remained close friends ever since, despite some absences from one another
	 while Tamara wen! to live in Arizona for a couple of years and Harley went out to California to 
	work on her master's and doctorate. Tamara is married to another policeman on the St. Louis police 
	force. Harley is engaged to her high school sweetheart and has been engaged for almost 15 years. 
	Tamara and Kate tease her constantly about the longest engagement in modern history.
	I'll think of names for Harley's finance and Tamara's husband and all the parents. Jason is not 
	married, has never been married, has had serial affairs of various degrees of seriousness. 506
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	5/7/20	Friday, May 7, 2010
	
	Seem to be having an Internet connection problem so I’ll write for awhile without ftp etc. There’s a 
	huge area in the southwest county area of St. Louis, along the Mississippi River, where there is a 
	labyrinth of caves. There are entrances to the caves along the bluff.s It’s all private property, 
	owned by the Angelo family, although hardly anyone knows that. St. Sebastian and the Sisters of 
	Immaculata Convent are owned by the Catholic church.
	
	Kate is not Catholic. She belongs to New Thought type church and Nick goes with her and feels 
	better about that church than the Catholic church. 
	
	What is my mystery? I think my mystery is that Jason Angelo is a serial killed who’s covered his 
	tracks very well for years. He starts stalking Kate. She gets these creepy feelings that she can’t 
	explain.
	
	There’s no love lost between the twin brothers. Nick tolerates his brother for the sake of the family 
	and Jason appears to do the same. They keep up appearances but actually don’t like each other. 
	Kate has to admit that it’s weird being married to a twin, there being someone else in the world that 
	looks like her husband. Especially someone that she doesn’t like. 
	
	Nick writes a column about the disappearance of a beautiful young waitress from a posh, exclusive 
	downtown athletic club. It caught his interest because one of his bosses at the newspaper had 
	taken Nick there for lunch and they’d been waited on by Sammy, the waitress who had 
	disappeared. Nick had remembered her because she’d introduced herself as “Sammy, like the 
	character on the soap opera Days of Our Lives.”
	
	Nick had speculated on the fate of the young waitress, on what looked like a tragic ending to an 
	already tragic life. She’d been a bubbly, vivacious charming girl. His boss had been waited on by 
	her for several years and he was quite taken with her. The police hadn’t been able to find any trace 
	of her. She lived in a downtown apartment with two other girls her same age and neither of them 
	had any idea where she might have gone or what was going on. She originally came from a mall 
	farm town in southern Missouri and had come to St. Louis to make her fame and fortune.
	
	She’d been scheduled to work a big party at the Athletic Club on a Friday night. It was a wedding 
	rehearsal dinner hosted by one of the prominent families in St. Louis. Sammy’s co-workers said 
	she’d been eagerly anticipating the party, anxious to see all the St. Louis movers and shakers, with 
	the women in their.elegant gowns and the men in their tuxedos.
	
	When Sammy didn’t show up in the time, the wait staff manager had called her apartment but there 
	was no answer. Sammy only lived two blocks away from the club so the manager sent one of the 
	busboys to go check on her.
	
	The boy returned in half an hour to report that there was no one home but the oddest thing – the 
	door to the apartment was standing wide open, something unheard of in downtown St. Louis, 
	where frequent robberies were the norm. 536
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	5/8/20	Saturday, May 8, 2010
	
	Jason had taken Sammy. On the Angelo property, there was an old hunting fishing cabin that 
	supposedly no one had used for years. But Jason had been using it for his own purposes. He’d 
	had some renovations done by an out of town construction company on the QT – so no one knew 
	what was going on. The cabin had an entrance into the caves on the bluffs, just like St. Sebastian 
	did. But no one knows about the cave entrances in the cabin but Jason and the one in St. 
	Sebastian is known only to Harry the handyman who tries to be Kate’s friend. 
	
	Sammy the waitress is a beautiful blond, a vivacious, sparkly girl, who’s smart, who’s attending the
	 local community college, where she’s studying hotel management. Jason met her at the Athletic 
	Club and quietly cultivated her acquaintance. His MO is to befriend the girls, then lure them out to 
	his hunting lodge. There he takes them prisoner and keeps them down in the labyrinth of caves. He
	 rapes them, and eventually he kills them. Over the years he’s killed five girls. Sammy is the sixth. 
	He buries the bodies in the cave, way back in dead-end corridors. 
	
	Jason has always been fascinated by Kate, from afar because he hardly ever sees her. He tells 
	himself that she’s fascinated with him also. But actually she’s creeped out by him and tries to see 
	him as little as possible. 
	
	We’re going to save Sammy but just barely.
	
	The other girls who disappeared were never found – they were from poor backgrounds, off the 
	radar with little or no family. Nick’s Dad is a good guy, who patiently puts up with an off the wall 
	wife who’s a bitch and who spoiled and coddled and ruined Jason. Because of Mrs. Angelo’s 
	protectiveness and refusal to let Jason out of her sight, Mr. Angelo became closest to Nick. He 
	didn’t spend much time with Jason because Mrs. Angelo usurped all his time. Meggie and Nick 
	were fast friends, and Mr. Angelo doted on Meggie. The three of them had fine adventures 
	together, without Jason and Mrs. Angelo.
	
	Meggie wanted to get away from her mother and the convent seemed like a perfect refuge. She 
	knew she would miss her father and her brother Nick, but the damage her mother was doing to her 
	was unbearable. Mrs. Angelo criticized Meggie unbearably. Nothing Meggie did was ever right or 
	good enough. According to her mother, she wasn’t pretty enough, she wasn’t smart enough, no 
	man would ever want to marry her. The constant barrage of criticism was more than Meggie could 
	bear. She had confided her unhappiness to one of the sisters who taught at her high school, and 
	the nun had suggested that Meggie consider devoting her life to God. It had sounded like such a 
	wonderful refuge to Meggie. She investigated the sisterhood and decided it was something she 
	wanted to do. To her great surprise, her mother had been overwhelmed with joy at her daughter’s 
	calling. For the first time in her life, Meggie felt that her mother approved of what she was doing. 
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	5/9/20	Sunday, May 9, 2010
	Nick's grandmother on his mother's side had come to live with the Angelos after Jason's almost 
	drowning experience. She'd seen the mistake her daughter was making by doting on Jason and 
	ignoring Nick and told her about it but her daughter paid no attention. So the grandmother took 
	Nick under her wing, thank heavens. She was a very down to earth woman who came from a solid 
	middle-class background and didn't have any of her daughter's pretentiousness.  She raised Nick 
	to be a kind understanding human being who liked people and let them into his life, unlike his 
	brother. The grandmother and mother need names. I'll worry about that tomorrow. The 
	grandmother tried to help out with Jason but the daughter wouldn't let anyone interfere with the 
	privileged way she was raising her son. In later years, Nick had speculated about how his brother 
	became such a problem. Nick didn't know if Jason was born with sociopathic tendencies or whether
	 his mother's coddling had caused them. 
	
	Jason had distanced himself emotionally from everyone but his mother. He doted on her as much 
	as she doted on him. Mr. Angelo saw what was going on and he and his mother in law managed to 
	raise Nick to be a good person. They both continued to try to influence Jason and Mrs. Angelo 
	but to no avail. 
	
	Jason had gone to Washington University in St. Louis and had continued to live at home while 
	attending college. He got an undergraduate degree in business and then an MBA with a major in 
	finance. When he graduated, he became a money manager at a St. Louis brokerage. He and Nick 
	had million dollar trust funds from their paternal grandparents and Jason began managing his own 
	portfolio. He'd tried to convince Nick to let him handle his money also but Nick knew intuitively 
	that it wouldn't be a good idea to mix money and family that way and had refused, leaving his 
	money, with the family's long-time firm of financial advisors. Kate knew Jason but didn't like him at 
	all. Jason kept his distance from the family except for his mother. They still spoke by phone every 
	day and lunched together several times a week. Kate felt strongly that there was something really 
	off about Jason. From a distance she'd diagnosed him as a sociopath and that diagnosis frightened
	 her. She'd never shared all her feelings with Nick but she knew that he too felt there was 
	something not right or not normal with his twin brother. It was one of those things that Mr. 
	Angelo, the grandmother, Nick and Kate knew and felt but didn't discuss. 
	
	Jason's office was in a Clayton high-rise and he lived a few blocks away in a multi-million dollar 
	Clayton townhouse. He'd never married but always dated the beautiful society girls and then 
	women. Nick and Kate saw him only at family gatherings for holidays and birthdays and never felt 
	any inclination to see more of him..
	
	Kate knew this was an unusual relationship and she'd talked to Haley, one of her best friends and 
	her partner in their small downtown counseling practice. Haley knew Jason slightly and she too 
	had the same reaction -- that he wasn't an understandable person.
	
	But God is he handsome, Haley had raved. I'd like ot get him on my counseling couch. That had 
	caused groans and much rolling of eyes from Kate.555
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	5/10/2	Not to be confused with Avoidant personality disorder.
	Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD or APD) is defined by the American Psychiatric 
	Association's Diagnostic and Statistical Manual as "...a pervasive pattern of disregard for, and 
	violation of, the rights of others that begins in childhood or early adolescence and continues into 
	adulthood."[1]
	
	The individual must be age 18 or older, as well as have a documented history of a conduct disorder
	 before the age of 15.[1] People having antisocial personality disorder are sometimes referred to as 
	"sociopaths" and "psychopaths".
	
	Contents [hide]
	1 History 
	2 Symptoms 
	3 Diagnostic criteria (DSM-IV-TR = 301.7) 
	3.1 Criticism 
	4 Diagnostic criteria (ICD-10) - dissocial personality disorder? 
	5 Millon's subtypes 
	6 Differential diagnosis: associated and overlapping conditions 
	7 Prevalence (epidemiology) 
	8 Treatment 
	9 See also 
	10 Notes 
	11 External links 

	[edit] History
	The history of the origins of antisocial personality disorder are closely related to the history of 
	psychopathy.
	
	[edit] Symptoms
	Characteristics of people with antisocial personality disorder may include:[2]
	
	Persistent lying or stealing 
	Apparent lack of remorse[3] or empathy for others 
	Cruelty to animals[4] 
	Poor behavioral controls — expressions of irritability, annoyance, impatience, threats, aggression, 
	and verbal abuse; inadequate control of anger and temper 
	A history of childhood conduct disorder 
	Recurring difficulties with the law 
	Tendency to violate the boundaries and rights of others 
	Substance abuse 
	Aggressive, often violent behavior; prone to getting involved in fights 
	Inability to tolerate boredom 
	Disregard for the safety of self or others 
	[edit] Diagnostic criteria (DSM-IV-TR = 301.7)
	The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders fourth edition, DSM IV-TR, a widely 
	used manual for diagnosing mental disorders, defines antisocial personality disorder (in Axis II 
	Cluster B) as:[1]
	
	A) There is a pervasive pattern of disregard for and the rights of others occurring since the age of 
	15, as indicated by three (or more) of the following: 
	failure to conform to social norms with respect to lawful behaviors as indicated by repeatedly 
	performing acts that are grounds for arrest; 
	deceitfulness, as indicated by repeatedly lying, use of aliases, or conning others for personal profit
	 or pleasure; 
	impulsivity or failure to plan ahead; 
	irritability and aggressiveness, as indicated by repeated physical fights or assaults; 
	reckless disregard for safety of self or others; 
	consistent irresponsibility, as indicated by repeated failure to sustain consistent work behavior or 
	honor financial obligations; 
	lack of remorse, as indicated by being indifferent to or rationalizing having hurt, mistreated, or 
	stolen from another. 
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	B) The individual is at least 18 years of age. 
	C) There is evidence of Conduct disorder with onset before age 15. 
	D) The occurrence of antisocial behavior is not exclusively during the course of schizophrenia or a 
	manic episode. 
	[edit] Criticism
	Researchers have heavily criticized the ASPD DSM-IV criteria because not enough emphasis was 
	placed on traditional psychopathic traits such as a lack of empathy, superficial charm, and inflated 
	self appraisal.[citation needed]
	
	These latter traits are harder to assess than behavioral problems (like impulsivity and acting out). 
	Thus, the DSM-IV framers sacrificed validity for reliability. That is, the ASPD diagnosis focuses on
	 behavioral traits, but only limited emphasis is placed on affective and unemotional interpersonal 
	traits.
	
	Researchers debate about whether psychopathy/sociopathy are incorrectly put together under 
	ASPD. These clinicians and researchers who believe that it was incorrect to label the two in the 
	same category are upset that an important distinction has been lost between these two disorders. 
	In other words, the DSM-IV-TR considers ASPD and psychopathy to be the same, or similar. 
	However, they are not the same since antisocial personality disorder is diagnosed via behavior and
	 social deviance, whereas psychopathy also includes affective and interpersonal personality 
	factors.[5]
	
	Also, ASPD, unlike psychopathy, does not have biological markers confirmed to underpin the 
	disorder.[citation needed] Other criticisms of ASPD are that it is essentially synonymous with 
	criminality. Nearly 80%–95% of felons will meet criteria for ASPD — thus ASPD predicts nothing in
	 criminal justice populations. Whereas, psychopathy scores (using the Hare Psychopathy 
	Checklist-Revised (PCL-R)) is found in only ~20% of inmates and PCL-R is considered one of the 
	best predictors of violent recidivism.[citation needed] Also, the DSM-IV field trials never included 
	incarcerated populations.
	
	The official stance of the American Psychiatric Association as presented in the DSM-IV-TR is that 
	"psychopathy" and "sociopathy" are obsolete synonyms for antisocial personality disorder. The 
	World Health Organization takes a similar stance in its ICD-10 by referring to psychopathy, 
	sociopathy, antisocial personality, asocial personality, and amoral personality as synonyms for 
	dissocial personality disorder.[citation needed]
	
	[edit] Diagnostic criteria (ICD-10) - dissocial personality disorder?
	The World Health Organization's ICD-10 defines a conceptually similar disorder to antisocial 
	personality disorder called (F60.2) Dissocial personality disorder.[6]
	
	It is characterized by at least 3 of the following: 
	Callous unconcern for the feelings of others and lack of the capacity for empathy. 
	Gross and persistent attitude of irresponsibility and disregard for social norms, rules, and 
	obligations. 
	Incapacity to maintain enduring relationships. 
	Very low tolerance to frustration and a low threshold for discharge of aggression, including 
	violence. 
	Incapacity to experience guilt and to profit from experience, particularly punishment. 
	Markedly prone to blame others or to offer plausible rationalizations for the behavior bringing the 
	subject into conflict. 
	Persistent irritability. 
	The criteria specifically rule out conduct disorders.[7] Dissocial personality disorder criteria differ 
	from those for antisocial and sociopathic personality disorders.[8] 
	It is a requirement of ICD-10 that a diagnosis of any specific personality disorder also satisfies a 
	set of general personality disorder criteria.
	
	[edit] Millon's subtypes
	Theodore Millon identified five subtypes of antisocial.[9][10] Any individual antisocial may exhibit 
	none, one or more than one of the following:
	
	covetous antisocial - variant of the pure pattern where individuals feel that life has not given them 
	their due. 
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	reputation-defending antisocial - including narcissistic features 
	risk-taking antisocial - including histrionic features 
	nomadic antisocial - including schizoid, avoidant features 
	malevolent antisocial - including sadistic, paranoid features. 
	[edit] Differential diagnosis: associated and overlapping conditions
	The following conditions commonly coexist with antisocial personality disorder:[11]
	
	Anxiety disorders 
	Depressive disorder 
	Substance-related disorders 
	Somatization disorder 
	Pathological gambling 
	Borderline personality disorder 
	Histrionic personality disorder 
	Narcissistic personality disorder 
	When combined with alcoholism, people may show frontal function deficits on neuropsychological
	 tests greater than those associated with each condition.[12]
	
	[edit] Prevalence (epidemiology)
	Antisocial personality disorder in the general population is about 3% in males and 1% in 
	females.[1][11]
	
	It is seen in 3% to 30% of psychiatric outpatients.[1][11] The prevalence of the disorder is even 
	higher in selected populations, such as people in prisons (who include many violent 
	offenders).[13] Similarly, the prevalence of ASPD is higher among patients in alcohol or other drug 
	(AOD) abuse treatment programs than in the general population (Hare 1983), suggesting a link 
	between ASPD and AOD abuse and dependence.[14]
	
	[edit] Treatment
	 This section requires expansion. 
	
	To date there have been no controlled studies reported which found an effective treatment for 
	ASPD, although contingency management programs, or a reward system, has been shown 
	moderately effective for behavioral change.[15] Some studies have found that the presence ASPD 
	does not significantly interfere with treatment for other disorders, such as substance abuse,[16] 
	although others have reported contradictory findings.[17]
	
	[edit] See also
	DSM-IV codes (personality disorders) 
	The Mask of Sanity 
	Psychopathy 
	Malignant narcissism 
	Conduct Disorder 
	[edit] Notes
	^ a b c d e Antisocial personality disorder - Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders 
	Fourth edition Text Revision (DSM-IV-TR) American Psychiatric Association (2000) - pages 
	645–650 
	^ "Antisocial Personality, Sociopathy, and Psychopathy" 
	^ "Antisocial Personality Disorder". Psychology Today. 2005. 
	http://psychologytoday.com/conditions/antisocial.html. Retrieved 2007-02-20.  
	^ Goleman, Daniel (7 August 1991), "Child's Love of Cruelty May Hint at the Future Killer", New 
	York Times  
	^ Hare, R.D., Hart, S.D., Harpur, T.J. Psychopathy and the DSM—IV Criteria for Antisocial 
	Personality Disorder (pdf file) 
	^ Dissocial personality disorder - International Statistical Classification of Diseases and Related 
	Health Problems 10th Revision (ICD-10) 
	^ 602 "F60.2 Dissocial personality disorder". World Health Organization. 
	http://www.who.int/classifications/apps/icd/icd10online/?gf60.htm+F602. Retrieved 2008-01-12.  
	^ Early Prevention of Adult Antisocial Behavior. Cambridge University Press. p. 82. 
	http://books.google.com/books?id=KtXU8R8oZYwC&pg=PA82&lpg=PA82&dq=dissocial+person
	ality+disorder&source=web&ots=lVx_gb_9mM&sig=U_bMqyc-KlzHKEvzXBdeZxplN2E. 
	Retrieved 2008-01-12.  
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	^ Millon, Theodore, Personality Disorders in Modern Life, 2004 
	^ Millon, Theodore - Personality Subtypes 
	^ a b c Internet Mental Health - antisocial personality disorder 
	^ Oscar-Berman M; Valmas M, Sawyer K, Kirkley S, Gansler D, Merritt D, Couture A (April 2009). 
	"Frontal brain dysfunction in alcoholism with and without antisocial personality disorder". 
	Neuropsychiatric Disease and Treatment 2009 (5): 309–326. PMID 19557141. 
	http://www.dovepress.com/getfile.php?fileID=4829.  
	^ Hare 1983 
	^ "Antisocial Personality Disorder, Alcohol, and Aggression". Alcohol Research & Health. 
	National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism. 2006. 
	http://pubs.niaaa.nih.gov/publications/arh25-1/5-11.pdf. Retrieved 2007-02-20.  
	^ J. E. Fisher & W. T. O'Donohue (eds). (2006). Practitioner's Guide to Evidence-Based 
	Psychotherapy, p63 
	^ S. Darke, R. Finlay-Jones, S. Kaye, & T. Blatt. Anti-social personality disorder and response to 
	methadone maintenance treatment. Drug and Alcohol Review, vol. 15, 271-276 (1996) 
	^ A. I. Alterman, M. J. Rutherford, J. S. Cacciola, J. R. McKay, & C. R. Boardman. Prediction of 7 
	months methadone maintenance treatment response by four measures of antisociality. Drug & 
	Alcohol Dependence, vol. 49, 217-223 (1998) 
	[edit] External links
	 Look up antisocial in Wiktionary, the free dictionary. 
	"Into the Abyss." Article on street crime referencing the roots and consequences of sociopathic 
	behavior 
	DSM IV-TR Criteria for Antisocial personality disorder 
	Psychopathy and Antisocial Personality Disorder: A Case of Diagnostic Confusion 
	Antisocial personality, Sociopathy, and psychopathy North Carolina Wesleyan College, 2005 
	Recent Studies Implicate Slow Monoamine Oxidase Enzyme/High Circulating T3 in Antisocial 
	Behavior/Aggression/Violence 2007
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	5/10/2	May 10, 2010
	Kate's doctoral thesis had dealt with sociopathology. She'd never told anyone why she'd picked 
	that topic and no one had ever questioned her about it. From the first day she met Jason, Kate felt 
	there was something off about him. She'd been tempted to use twin studies but decided that was 
	too close to home and everyone would understand what she was doing. Her motive behind 
	choosing that topic was to make sure she understood her lover's twin brother - and to make this 
	wasn't a genetic, inherited thing that Nick might evidence.
	She was fairly certain that Jason's mother had been a strong contributing factor in his psychology. 
	Kate had never shared her paper with anyone, particularly not Nick. He would have recognized his 
	brother right away and Kate didn't want that to happen. She felt guilty about the topic and 
	eventually came to regret her choice. But it had been too late to switch topics so she'd proceeded 
	cautiously, making sure she kept it a deep, dark secret.
	She had shared the paper and the topic with one of her best friends and now counseling partner. 
	Haley had recognized and identified Jason immediately. She'd been concerned once she'd realized 
	how very dysfunctional Jason was. Haley had encouraged Kate to share her thoughts and feelings
	 with Nick but Kate had categorically refused. She knew Nick was far from being close to his twin 
	brother, but Kate didn't want Nick to say anything to the family about her at a distance diagnosis 
	of her brother in law to be.
	
	The time has almost come to decide whether this is first or third person, or multiple first persons. I 
	also need names for Nick's parents and grandmother and whoever else I haven't named yet. I think 
	the crime(s) is the serial killings. I have to make it really clever and spooky and creepy with yucky 
	basements and attics and deserted houses - but mostly the caves. I'm very excited about doing 
	something about the caves. Harry shares the details with Kate and gives her a major guided tour 
	but swears her to secrecy, telling her he could lose his job if anyone found out he'd told her about 
	all this and taken her down into the caves.
	Kate had paid close attention to what Harry told her and showed her. She thought she could find 
	her way back into the caves and decided to do so, to check out some puzzling things she'd seen 
	there. She knows she shouldn't but her curiosity gets the better of her. And besides, she thinks 
	she may have lost one of her favorite earrings down there. She doesn't feel too terribly comfortable 
	with Harry but doesn't have any reason for that feeling. None of the murdered girls bodies have 
	ever been found so everyone thinks they just disappeared - ran away from home - not that they 
	were murdered. Jason has buried all five of them in the caves and left no trace of them 
	anvwhere.500
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	5/11/2	Tuesday, May 11, 2010-05-11
	When Jason was a little boy, he discovered the caves underneath his family's hunting lodge and 
	kept the secret to himself. He was a very secretive, sneaky little boy, a loner. He and Nick never 
	played together much and Jason didn't make many friends. Nick had all kinds of friends that were 
	always over at his house or else he was over at their houses. Mrs. Angelo never encouraged Jason
	 to play with Nick and his friends or accompany them anywhere. She preferred to keep her precious
	 angel, miracle boy nearby. Jason, being the sneaky little thing that he was, used his mother's 
	attachment to him for his own purposes.
	Jason went through the whole childhood syndrome of abusing animals but I can't dwell on that or 
	get graphic about it. I can mention something about a missing dog or two but I don't want to get 
	too deeply into that. For some reason, I can't bear to think about or read about or watch cruelty to 
	animals, especially cats.
	When Kate goes down into the caves, she takes a flashlight. She gets turned around and lost and 
	comes upon the area that Jason set up to hide his particular section of the cave infrastructure. He 
	made it look like the ceiling had collapsed, with boulders blocking the way. Kate thought it looked 
	interesting and she was able to see through to the other side and thought she saw the faint 
	glimmer of a light. Then her flashlight started to dim and she decided she'd better get herself back 
	to safety. She would come back another time, with a fresh flashlight and a backup to boot.
	What she'd caught a glimpse of was Jason's staging area. He kept his treasures as he thought of 
	them, chained to a post he'd put on the floor of the cave. He had started out years ago with a 
	motion sensitive video camera set up on a tripod and focused on his captive. Then as webcam 
	technology came about and then improved, he set up a laptop plugged into a small generator so 
	that whenever he had a captive or prey or treasure he could watch them whenever and wherever he
	 wanted. He kept up with all the latest technology. He was also part of a secret online chat group 
	that was in to capturing and torturing and raping victims. He was a lurker, never joining in, because
	 he feared being discovered.
	Here's my plan: f will finish my 500 words here - Then I will print the whole thing out and read it and
	 scratch out ideas that I'm no longer interested in using. I'll also come up with names for Mr. and 
	Mrs. Angelo, the grandmother of Nick that took care of him. And I'll change Jenny Schreiber's 
	name -1 don't like Schreiber. I haven't decided about Kate's dad yet. I don't know if he left or if he's 
	dead or if he's still there and a wonderful presence like Leslie Davis's dad. I can decide that later. 
	My plan is to do notes this way for awhile until I have the crimes and the characters and the 
	scenes well in mind. Then I'll start writing for real. And by that time, I'll know if I want to use first 
	person, multiple first person, third person or a combination of first and third person. 565
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	6/5/20	June 5, 2010 -- This is the first time I've done writing on the computer since the vertigo episode. I've
	 done a little in the notebook and that's what I'm going to type in here now, plus whatever else I 
	think of. But first I'm going to enlarge the type on the computer. I've now nelarged the fonts and it 
	works much better. I should have done this a long time ago. I did it to my computer at work and 
	that's a good thing.  5/31/10--Nick and Kate's wedding was in New York City at the Dakota, with the
	 reception at Tavern on the Green. What is Kate like? She's very pretty, very smart -- a good, loving
	 person who cares about her patients. She's sparkly and vivacious and engaging. Anyone who 
	talks with her falls under her spell. Nick is quirkly but equally good and delightful. His mind goes in
	 unusual ways. He's a free spirit, an independent thinker. Nick is good-looking, with dark eyes and 
	bright blue eyes. Medium height and medium build. Healthy -- he's a runner. Kate walks and 
	sometimes they walk really fast together, a compromise on both their parts. In high school, Nick 
	was editor of the school newspaper and Kate was editor of the yearbook. Nick brought a different 
	flavor to the newspaper  He was always looking for the deeper story, the story behind the story. 
	The reasons for the story. Both the high school paper and the Post-Dispatch. 6/1/10 -- Nick has a 
	sense of humor and a true, kind heart. He's very much his father's son. Kate loves her father-in-law 
	-- he's a substitute father for her. Nick is gentle but strong and determined. From childhood, he 
	understood the world. He also understood that something was very wrong with his twin brother 
	Jason and he walled himself off from that. I see bluffs, cliffs, an abandoned quarry. 6/2/10 -- Nick is 
	a fallen away Catholic. Kate is a New thought, New Ager. Victoria and Parker Angelo are devout 
	Catholics. Thunder and lightning -- thunderstorms -- gales and gusts of wind. Where do Parker and
	 Victoria live? They have an estate in the Huntleigh Woods area. 6/3/10 -- I think Kate's father 
	disappeared when she was a little girl. Her mother, Jenny Davis, managed to support them on her 
	secretary's salary. Growing up, Kate never knew just how little money they had. Jenny could work 
	miracles with a small amount of money. 6/4/10 -- Tomorrow after I get home from the storeI will 
	spend several hours writing (ha!). Typing in the things I've written since the episode that I've done
	 in the notebook that aren't in the computer. I'll read through the notes -- Listen to Pachebel -- 
	Candles -- Merlot -- Relaxed -- At ease -- Comfortable. I think maybe Jenny worked for Mr. Angelo 
	and fell in love with him. I think he fell in love with her too and they had an affair but his wife 
	wouldn't give him a divorce because of their religion and because of her spitefulness. She is an evil
	 woman -- a combination of Mrs. Ellerman and Andie.525
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	6/6/20	6/6/10 -- I had the episode to bring me close to God -- so that I can live in constant awareness of 
	God -- like the God is the Answer book and time at Fort Benning. So I'm thinking that I want my 
	writing to reflect my belief in God -- to reflect what I believe -- that I believe in goodness and the 
	strength of faith in God. Not that God does everything for us so we don't have t do anything. But 
	that God is the end all and be all of everything. God is good and God is in everything. We're all part
	 of God and God is part of us. Positive thinking, thinking good, strong positive thoughts is the way
	 God wants us to live our llives and it's the way I want to live mine. First and foremost, we love to 
	serve God. Serving God is our joy and our mission and our purpose and our calling. Give it up to 
	God. Give your all to God. Let go of your ego and your selfishness and your personality and give it
	 all to God. Follow God's way. Trust that He will lead and guide you in the right way, in your way. 
	God is in me and through me. I feel His presence. I sit in the silence and let God's love and 
	goodness enfold me and care for me. This is what is meant to be for me. From this moment on, I will
	 live consciously in the presence of God. God will show me the way to go with my writing. I can still
	 write about Kate and Nick. Maybe Jason and maybe not. We’ll see. Tomorrow I will drive to work 
	and God will be right there with me. I've wanted to write since I was a little girl. I wanted to write 
	because I loved to read so much. The feeling was just there inside me and it still is. I've written way
	 over half a million words and I have millions more inside me. It's not like I believe that Unity is the 
	only religion -- it's that I believe it's the right one for me. Just like I finally realized that LDS was the 
	wrong thing for me. And I'm okay with Mike and Becky and Will and the Catholic church. I don't 
	know if E will ever be Catholic but whatever she does is okay with me. Maybe I can use the LDS 
	thing in this book -- maybe one of Kate's friends went through that -- or her mother Jenny. Jenny 
	and Kate go to church together and they're both active in the church. Sometimes Nick goes with 
	them and he participates in the activities. He does the church's website as a volunteer and as a 
	hobby for himself. Our life is determined by how we deal with what happens to us. Some of what 
	happens to us is under our control by our choices and decisions and the goals we make and meet. 
	Other things that happen to us are random, by chance, with no rhyme nor reason, just 
	happenstance. But how we react to that happenstance, how we handle what happens to us is 
	under our control and very much determines our lives. Johnny, bless his heart, handled his 
	happenstance most nobly. I am so proud of him and so proud to be his wife and blessed to have 
	loved him.576
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	6/7/20	6/7/10 -- How do I write mysteries if I want to write religious things? Maybe the religious things are
	 a thread, a theme through the mysteries. I came up with an idea that a person's religion has to be 
	personal to him or her. There's no one size fits all. Each of us has to feel right and comfortable with 
	our religion. That's what was so wrong for me with the LDS religion. It didn't feel right to me. I 
	couldn't believe all those outlandish things like the golden plates and the book of Mormom and 
	celestial marriage and polygamy. I was forcing myself to believe it because I wanted to believe it. 
	Unity is right for me because that's what I really believe. Catholicism is really right for Becky 
	because that's what she really believes. Catholicism works for Mike and Will just because they can 
	handle that. I don't know what Ellen believes -- it's not an organized religion -- she has her own 
	religion -- the gospel according to E -- she mentions having conversations with God so I think she 
	does believe in God. There was a point where I thought I should convert everyone to Unity 
	because that's the only religion that's real and important but that's not true at all. I think it's all right 
	to write my mysteries and not make them into a conversion tool for Unity. People in my stories can 
	be any religion they want, or no religion at all. I know what I believe and what I want but I give 
	others that same right. So I think Kate and Jenny are Unity, Nick is a fallen away Catholic who sort 
	goes along with what Kate believes and goes to some of the church events and on Christmas and 
	Easter, to be with Kate. She sort of feels that if they were to have children, he would go with the 
	family to church. Kate loves reading Nick's columns. She helped him compile the book of columns 
	that got published and together they decided on the categories to group them. Kate is a writer also,
	 of mystery fiction, but she doesn't have enough confidence in her abilities. Did Jenny and Parker 
	have an affair? No, Jenny fell in love with Parker and he fell in love with her. But neither of them 
	condoned fidelity. Jenny left his company and went to work somewhere else, making substantially 
	more money, doing work that she loved, managing a small group of data entry workers at UMSL.. 
	She never knew that Parker had arranged for her to get the job. He was friends with the chancellor 
	of the university and was on the Chancellor's Council. He'd told her about this particularly amazing 
	worker at his firm and that she was job hunting, wanting something other than secretarial work. 
	The chancellor told him their fund raising department was going to computerize their gift 
	processing system and they needed someone to manage the data entry workers. Parker had 
	someone else tell Jenny about the availability of the job. She never knew of his involvement. For 
	years they would see each other sporadically at events around town. Then to Jenny's dismay, Kate
	 had started dating Nick in high school. Jenny had tried to discourage the relationship, telling Kate 
	she was too young to get serious about anyone but it didn't work. So Parker and Jenny found 
	themselves thrown together as in-laws. 573
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	6/8/20	6/8/10 -- I'm feeling good about my realization about religion. I kept thinking I had to proselytize 
	and convert everyone to Unity but I don’t have to do that and I don't have to write about Unity 
	except as I want to. I like the idea of Parker and Jenny eventually getting together. I like the idea 
	that she didn't have an affair with him, that she did the honorable thing and left. Jenny never told 
	anyone about her love for Parker. Kate had found it strange that her mother seemed slightly aloof 
	from the Angelos, something that was uncharacteristic of Jenny. I have to figure out Kate's two 
	friends, Haley and somebody. I don't know yet who they are or what they do. One of them is 
	married to a friend of Nick and the foursome does a lot of things together. The other friend is single
	 and it's a joke among the foursome that they're always fixing her up with someone -- and the 
	fix-ups never work. Nick and his Dad are very close. They have a fun, loving relationship. It's 
	unspoken between them about Victoria and Jason. Nick and Parker both made their peace a long 
	time ago with the dysfunction of Victoria and Jason. I'm not sure what the Angelo fortune is -- I 
	think it may be Dynatron, the aerospace firm. Their estate in Huntleigh Woods is an oasis -- almost 
	their own country club. Nick grew up in a privileged lifestyle but it didn't negatively impact him. He 
	chose to go to public school, because of a couple of kids who lived on the outskirts of Huntleigh. 
	The first day of junior high school, he met Kate and refused to consider private school. Parker was 
	okay with Nick's choice but Victoria was livid, claiming that she was humiliated to have a son who 
	attended public school. All through junior and senior high, Nick and Kate dated, much to Jenny's 
	chagrin. She tried to gently discourage the relationship but couldn't bring herself to forbid Kate to 
	date Nick. She had no reason that she could give. I think Haley is a counselor also, in practice with 
	Kate. Their other friend is Mallory -- a beautiful, brilliant attorney. She's rigidly single, having been 
	engaged twice, once breaking off the relationship literally as she walked down the aisle. She felt 
	she'd never live down that humiliation. The three girls met in high school and remained close 
	friends after graduation and during their college years. They lived in various St. Louis 
	neighborhoods but got together frequently for lunch or dinner. They treated Nick like one of the 
	girls, and he enjoyed their company but didn't make a habit of hanging out with them too much. He 
	felt Kate needed her friends to be her friends. Both Nick and Kate are wise, mature, fun-loving, 
	interesting and interested in life. They complete each other, complement each other. Sometimes 
	they squabble over minor things but never major things, and the small squabbles quickly dissipate.
	 They've grown into each other. they're one of those rare soul mate couples.516
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	6/9/20	
	6/9/10 -- I can see the ending of Night's End. Jason and Victoria are struggling at the cliff and they 
	fall over together, crashing on the jagged rocks below. Jason has Kate imprisoned in the hunting 
	lodge but she had managed to escape. She saw them go over the cliff and ran inside to call the 
	police. The book starts out at St. Sebastian, when Harry shows Kate the secret hidden tunnels and 
	caves under the mental hospital. Harry swears her to secrecy but she crosses her fingers because 
	she knows she's going to tell Nick. Later that day, Kate realizes she's lost an earring, a gift from 
	Nick and she finds a flashlight and goes back down into the tunnels. She finds the earring but also 
	sees what looks like a light down a corridor that's blocked by huge boulders, like something caved 
	in. Her flashlight is getting dim so she hurries back into the hospital, determined to explore the 
	tunnels again at a later date, just like Nancy Drew she thinks. That night, Kate tells Nick about the 
	tunnels and he's fascinated. He does some research on the Internet and can't find much about the 
	tunnels. He wants Kate to show them to him but she's hesitant because of Harry. He's a weird guy 
	and she's sure he'll react badly if he were to discover that she told someone his secret. Kate finally 
	agrees to talk with Harry and try to convince him that he should show his secret caves to her 
	husband, who is a very special person, and who she's sure Harry will like. There will be a dinner 
	out with the girls when we find out more about Kate and Haley and Mallory, the drop dead lawyer. 
	I don't know if Mallory is in private practice or is a public defender or a prosecuting attorney,  Kate 
	has someone that Nick knows that she wants to fix Mallory up with but Mallory categorically 
	refuses. Next we'll introduce Jenny and this will lead to Parker and Victoria. This will lead to Jason 
	and his sociopathology and Victoria's absolute dependence and obsession. Then we go to Jason 
	and that he's a serial murderer. Maybe Mallory is a prosecuting attorney and the talk is all about a 
	beautiful young woman who's disappeared. She's one of a long string of women who've 
	disappeared and whose bodies have never turned up. This particular woman worked in the 
	courthouse as a court reporter and Mallory had known her to say hi how are you, for years. The 
	plot of the book is that Kate eventually realizes that Jason is a murderer. At first, she's just 
	convinced he's a soulless psychopath, from her years of observation. She's never shared her 
	opinion of Jason with Nick, but she knows that he too wants nothing to do with his twin brother 
	and pretty much has written him off and out of his life. Kate's not lying to NIck, just protecting him 
	from her condemnation of Jason. She eventually confesses to Nick what her opinion of Jason is 
	but she still gets abducted by him, He's come to hate Kate because she and Nick won't have 
	anything to do with him. 535
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	6/10/2	6/10/10 -- An amazing thing happened today -- I interviewed Jim McKenzie and it was a very 
	special experience. I was dreading doing it because Mary Beth told me I was supposed to write an 
	article about how he knew Coach Wooden and I hate doing that kind of thing. But we talked for an 
	hour and I taped it because it was hard to take notes. I'll work on it Friday and send it to him. He's a
	 very religious spiritual man. He's Catholic. He kneels and prays every night. He reads scripture 
	every day. I'm going to transcribe the tape. He grew up in St. Louis. He went to UMSL at Bellerieve 
	Country Club. He believes he knows the exact time Coach Wooden dying. He was on his knees 
	saying his evening prayers and the darkness behind his eyes turned into a brilliant white light. He's
	 going to send me one of Coach Wooden's books. He refers to the book of wisdom, as he calls it, at
	 least a couple times a week. Heavenly Father intended this for me. Just as Heavenly Father 
	intended the thing about the Culture & Kudos Rate a Page comments. I will joyously welcome all 
	that comes my way because it all comes from Heavenly Father. Julie came by and shared with me 
	about her son seeing her brother, about her niece having tea with him, work boots with red laces. 
	The Jim McKenzie thing is a really important thing that has happened to me.  I think it's 
	life-changing like the vertigo bringing me closer to God. I intend to do a lot of research about 
	Coach Wooden and try to understand how he got to be who he was and what he was. I'll also do a 
	good job of transcribing the Jim McKenzie tape. this will change my life for the better and I 
	welcome this gift from God. I shall commit to this. The vertigo was a life-changing event that told 
	me I wanted to serve the Lord, commit myself to God, which is always what I've wanted but didn't 
	know how to achieve. Now I'm ready to get the message from Coach Wooden and Jim McKenzie to
	 figure out how to do it and what I want to do. Maybe this will help my writing also. I'm not really a 
	good writer. It's very hard for me and it turns out badly. Tina and Kelly are so much better than me 
	but I mean well and I'll let Heavenly Father help me and love me and be with me. All is well and all is
	 good. I will report my progress and report how I'm doing and what I'm thinking and what I'm 
	feeling. I think this advice can lead me in the right direction along with Unity. I think this advice will
	 be the motivational, inspirational advice that I need. I'm totally excited and psyched about this. I 
	know this is what I'm supposed to do and what I'm meant to do. I will explore and think and be 
	grateful for all of this. It was meant to be and intended to be.525
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